Getting Employee of the Month

Yesterday I was greeted by three of my managers and they told me that I was the employee of the month. The first thing I thought was “this must be fake”. I work harder than my peers because that is what i was taught to do. I grew up to exceed in your work but not expect anything back. I never succeeded that well in school, so I always shot for a B+, so if I got an A I would be really happy and proud of myself, but if i got a C I wouldn’t be really disappointed. When I heard them tell me that I was getting a plaque and an extra pay 100 dollar paystub I was only really excited about the plaque (must be the autism /hj). I was in shock, and disbelief because in my head I only sometimes get rewarded for doing above and beyond, and for me what i did was not above and beyond, it was the right thing to do. Staying later in the night making sure everything was clean, helping out others with their chores, and asking to do the dirty work or taking over someone shift because they aren’t feeling like it. To me it feels normal to do these things but I guess it is not what everyone does? Well I definitely know that. I constantly catch my coworkers lacking, being on their phone, not wanting to do a simple task because simply they are lazy, and others coming into work for the check and not the experience. I really like working at Skate Station. I told my Jay, my manager that “If i’m not sweating, it doesn’t feel like i’m working hard enough”, and I stand by that. If I am going to the gym and i’m not sweating, am I really getting anything done?

My other initial thoughts were that I must have been put on employee of the month because I am not every going to be DJ, or something to sugar coat another thing. Something to put in my lap instead of something that I asked for. Almost as if I am sad about something and someone puts a puppy in my lap. It is just a distraction. That is probably my trauma speaking tho :/

But that is it, I just wanted to vent. I will post a picture below eventually of my plaque.